DUMB!

Ok so i had this friend, i thought we were best friends she was the only one i had after i gave up my other backstabing friends and well now im not sure i want her as my friend. She keeps saying she is pregnant but is always having a miss carage, but none of the dates match up. The most resent was today, she said a week ago that she was 3 months along but not even three months ago she said she had a miss carage with this guys baby who wasnt her boyfriend but now she is three months pregnant with her boyfriends baby? When today she said she was a month along and was having a girl when she had her miss carage yesterday, first of all you had a miss carage a month not even a month before school started you were texting me at the time and wouldnt go to the hospital, second you say first that your three months along and its your boyfriends baby when you and your boyfriend didnt even have sex tell two weeks after your "miss carage", third no one can tell the sex of a baby one month in. I have found out that this girl is a lier and the fact that i am supposed to be her best friend sbut she tells the girl who is living with me that she is "pregnant" before she tells me and also tells a guy that she just met, does that sound like a best friend plus she hasnt even talk to me in two weeks and i have to hear about the miss carage from the girl who is living with me. I really dont understand if she is trying to push me away by being best friends with the one person who has hurt me A LOT and also trying to hook up with my ex-boyfriend who all girls know friends dont date there friends exs no matter if they have feelings for them or not. Im trying to be here and be understanding but how can you be here for someone who chooses people they "hate" over there best friend?

Maybe i never was her friend at all, maybe i was like one of those guys to her that she could date mess with and then just throw away? Well im not a guy and im not someone that she can walk all over! She will learn that walking all over poeple will get you no where, expashaly people like me.

One Friends!

I have learned that friends are not the best thing in the world to have. You talk to them about something that is really important that you dont want others to know and they go and tell other people. So i only have one true friend, i am hapi with that more hapi then i have ever been. I do have people that i hang out with but i do not talk to them about stuff that is going on in my life, all they will do is tell there friends or people that they know. I wont lie i have many time in a convo acadintly told someone somthing that a person didnt want me to tell because it went along with what we were talking about, but most poeple do it just to talk about that person. Its not right at all. Im not saying that telling by acsadint is any better but at least you werent doing it to hurt the person. I am hapi with just having one person to talk to because i have figured out that even your best friends will trun on you and not talk to you about anything.

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I just wrote a hole bunch of stuff and then i decided to delete it all. It had nothing to do with informing people about anything. Honestly life is hard and it sucks! For girls i think it is even harder because we like to put each other down way more and we know what will hurt someone and we use that agenst them. Thats not right or kewl in any way. I mean would you like to get told to go kill your self by someone that you thought was a friend? I know i didnt. Its not kewl and the things us girls say to and about each other tells guys that they can say it and do it to us to. Why do you think we get called sluts and whores when guys get hi fived for banging a girl? Because we call each other thoughs names! Why do you think guys think they cant put there hands on us? because us girls do it all the time to each other as jokes but really its just telling guys yeha its ok to do this and you dont even have to ask or expact anything other then that i will like it. NO thats NOT right!!!! Girls have the same rights as guys so why do us girls treat guys different then we treat girls? we treat girls like they are lower then us if they are prettyer then us. We call them names or say they are so full of them selves if they are prettyer then us. I dont do this i know how it feels when as soon as i walk into the school girls are already talking about me but they dont even know my name yet, they just say "have you herd about that new girls? she is such a slut." I get that everytime i move and its not right, they dont even know me they took one look at me saw that i was better then them and thought that they could put me down to make them selves look better, but what they didnt know is that i knew i was better them because i dont do crap like that and i know who i am and what i can do! I know how to stand up for myself which i did. I know that no matter what anyone says about me i know whats true and if people want to believe whats being said then fine i didnt need that person as a friend anyways, i dont need someone that thick! I have learned that waiting to make friends after seeing what they are really like is the best thing in the world to do, because making a friend right off and telling them stuff about you is the worst thing you can do because in a week it will be all over the place. Picking your friends wissly is the best thing anyone can do you dont watn all you business out to the world because you made a really bad friend like i did, i mean friends.

You just need to know who you are and never let anyone stand in your way or walk all over you. I live by this one song and its meaning its by: jimmy eat world - the middle. Its a good song if you are still trying to find yourself and are worried about losing friends. Well i think that is all i need to say write now.

Long time

It has been awhile since i have posted anything i kind of lost my info. /= I am back now though. (: A lot have things have changed since the last time i have been on here. I have found myself more and have relized that certain people are not worth my time or energy. I am a new person that takes care of her self and is getting healthy! I do only have a couple of friends now but i like it that way its a lot less drama.

I do have some stuff to tell all you kids going into the higher grades like middle school and high school. Do not get to close with anyone, keep your secrets as much as you can, keep other peoples secrets and do not be afraid to tell people the truth about how feel, and do not ever let someone tell you what to do or let them walk all over you. You are in charge of your life no one else is.